//Looking back at how far you've come knowing that if you just trust the process it will Happen in time. It doesn't happen overnight there are times you want to give up because the results are just not happening but if you truly want something so bad you always find away to succeed and finish it. I make the excuse winter is a struggle for me the motivation dies down I'd rather spend the night in my pjs under the heater then busting my ass at a PT session in the cold. I've noticed this week when catching up with some of my cleansing babes I've been saying to them "you only have yourself to blame if your not working hard enough to achieve your goals" and really I should of be saying that to myself. You can always be better than yesterday but you have to stop with the bullshit excuses you tell yourself each morning why you shouldn't eat better or why you shouldn't go for that walk or that workout and get up and just do it. Do it for you to be stronger happier and healthier💋
Last week vs 2013.
I've always been someone who is pretty comfortable in my body. I was always the big girl. Everyone's best friend. Never anyone's girl. That changed when I was 21 and met who I thought was THE guy (spoiler alert..he wasn't). Fast forward about a year and half and my life crumbled. I reacted pretty strongly. I worked out almost everyday. Sometimes twice a day. I ate healthy ALL of the time. It was the only thing I was in control of. I was obsessed with how I looked. And I hated who I was becoming. I was slipping into a depression I was afraid of drowning in. Meeting Kyle was like breathing again. He saw me for who I am. Flaws and all. He calls me a dork almost daily. And never fails to tell me that I'm beautiful even though I've gained a bunch of weight over the last four years of our relationship. Sometimes I'll catch him staring at me and smiling. I wish I could see me through his eyes.
I eat too much pasta. Candy is a food group. I'm a social/stress smoker. And I don't get as much exercise as I would like.
But I'm happy. I'm comfortable. And I'm always working on a better me for tomorrow. 💙
I've been having a lot of bad body image days lately. Most days I embrace every "flaw," but every so often I'll go through a phase where I wake up, stare at myself in the mirror for long periods of time, point out everything I dislike about my body and cry. I feel I'm slipping into one of those phases again. I know it'll pass, but for now I'm reminding myself of what my body can do. It isn't on this earth to be a sight of beauty. This body keeps my soul alive — I have a heart that pumps my blood, lungs that allow me to breathe and a brain that helps me think critically. My body also helps me perform tasks I love. This body carried me through my Zumba instructor training and continues to learn new choreography every week. I have so many things to be thankful for and I just need to remind myself not to get hung up on my appearance. On that note, when I'm feeling this way, I often look at the photos from my shoot with @terihofford, because they remind me of how she helped me realize my worth and where beauty truly comes from 🙌🏻
Day 225 of #365days#inthefaceofbdd : raising #awareness of #bodydysmorphia 1 person and 1 photo at a time. Get in touch by messaging me or on email@example.com. Today's photo taken by Annie. Annie's a friend from Landmark. We'd been talking about an event coming up in a couple of weeks called the Family Coaching Session. It only happens once a year and we're both really excited about it and were talking about how we can help more people find out about it. So, it was a great and easy conversation and one in which Annie had already told me several times how much she respects me. And yet..as if that wasn't enough to be confident that there would be no judgement to fear coming from there...when I was about to leave the centre and I realised that it was already 9pm and I still hadn't done my photo for the day, I looked at Annie and at first bottled it and got scared, deciding it was too risky to share with her. And one thing extra thing you need to know about Annie is that she'd the loveliest person in the world, so there really is no reason for thinking that at all other than my nonsense - my oh so wonderfully human nonsense. Aren't we just great creatures with all the ways we get ourselves in a twist and create elaborate meanings for stuff that they really don't mean. But fortunately I just about 'woke' enough these days to stop myself in my tracks. So I literally backed up and just went over to Annie and asked her if she knew what Body Dysmorphia was and then I shared with her. Not only was it easy, it was brilliant. We had an even more open conversation than we had before and just Annie shared what the Forum has done for her own confidence and ability to just own her power and not be ashamed or frightened anymore. It's amazing stuff and I'm grateful for it everyday. #bdd#bodydysmorphicdisorder#bodyimage#bddfoundation#freedom#practice#meditation#spiritualpath#mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#challengeaccepted#spritualpath#fearless#breakthrough#selfdevelopment#landmarkforum#landmark#forumleader#edge#sharing#vulnerable#love#smile#laugh#habit#powerofhabit
I have always been taller then all my girl friends.
I have always been bigger then all of my girl friends.
I have always had a round face
I have always been fearless
I have always got what I wanted
I have always had beautiful blue eyes
I have always been smart
I have always been strong
I have never had any regrets
Except for my body...that's the only regret I have had my whole life.
Too big, too tall .
I was born loving my body.
One day at the age of 7 I was told by a teacher that I was too tall
One day I was told by an uncle that my breast were growing big
One day I was called a big fat cow and another day....
The unacceptance of my body was taught to me at a very young age.
It's only for the last 5 years that I know in my logical mind that it's not the truth
That In fact my body is just tall enough
That my body is just big enough
That my face is just round enough
That nothing is wrong with my body appearance
I know this intellectual
I know this in my conscious mind
Today's work is to feel this in my body
Feeling in the body is the way to my subconscious mind
My subconscious mind is my ego
My ego is that little voice that reminds me that my body is not enough
My ego is what lead me to binge.
Knowing is not enough I must feel
Yes you can✌️
Back chatter ➡️ MUTE! #innercritic#yesyoucan
OMG doesn't it just drive you crazy sometimes?🤦♀️...No don't do that, no you are not good enough for that, who do you think you are...and it goes on! Train that amazing brain of yours and truely practice how to turn it off and turn it in to something positive. #postivemindpositivelife#brainpower
I'm gonna get real & vulnerable here for a hot minute.
There are moms out there that snap back to their pre-baby body in 3 months or less.
There are moms out there that have to work at it for a year or two.
There are moms out there that struggle finding the right "thing" or diet to get it back for 5 years.
There are moms out there that work their tails off, have a 10 & 8 year old & still struggle & hope & pray for that pre-baby body every day. 🙋🏻
Point is, no one is going to be the same. Let's STOP the comparison game because we are never going to be in the same body. I will never look like some of my mom friends that don't look like they even had a baby & it has taken me a long fu$%ing time to accept that & truly be okay with that. But I also know I will never be the mom that doesn't have to do any work & has a banging body. I will also never be the mom that lives off of chicken, rice & asparagus longing for a glass of wine for a body either.
Stop the comparison. Start focusing on your own path, love the sh*t out of yourself and do you Mama! 👌🏼 #NoBullshitDiet
Media Monday Vol. 5 is up on the blog (link in my profile) it's all about #bodyimage#beauty#lovinngyourself because you have to love yourself, you can never leave you! Might as well love it and own it! Thanks to @dragonflylady77 for the inspiration!
so I ate dinner in my undies and this super short top. I kept thinking about how awesome it felt, how freeing it was, and how I really ought to post a facebook status about eating dinner in your undies just so that everyone could also benefit from my invention. But then I realized: most people probably know this. Most people have probably tried this in their adult lives, right? Like, maybe some people enjoy their bodies being free of fabric, instead of living in constant fear that they'll be exposed and revealed as the hideous objects they "truly are", the way Old Me thinks? The only reason I couldn't ever DARE/BARE to eat a proper dinner at a proper table whilst half naked was my body hatred. I literally do nothing else by the book so why that? Oh right. The AUDACITY of allowing the truth of my naked body to be seen consuming calories. An almost laughable proposition. But under that is shame, shame shame shame. Shame for being me, for being human, for having needs, for having authenticity in my body shape. Shame is perhaps the most toxic feeling. It affirms that there is something wrong with me, that i am, at my core, unlovable and separate. So not that there's anything wrong with eating clothed but eating 1/2 naked is a radical act when it is used as a weapon against shame. So maybe Pantless Meal Mondays will be a thing now. Freedom from internalized fat phobia and self hatred is on the inside, but the joy it brings is def on all of the sides 💖💖 bonus fun fact: I only had space left for one pic so there were zero retakes. What you see on the ground is NOT a blanket covering up a corpse but rather yesterday's picnic blanket (more ways to enjoy life that involve food) .
You're fat. You just need to lose 10 more pounds. No one needs to know I skipped all my meals today. Once I lose 5 more pounds I'll start eating again... These are things I use to tell myself everyday (sometimes I still do). Multiple times a day. I hated my body. I hate how fat I thought I was "even though I wasn't". So I starved my self. I would lie and say that I already ate, so I wouldn't have to eat. It got so bad that you could see it on the outside that I wasn't eating or taking care of myself physically. This happened all through junior high and some of Highschool. Thankfully my parents knew and helped me get some help and I realized that I wasn't fat at all and that my body was/is good enough. That I am good enough that I don't need to abuse myself to love myself. Now I'm healthy. I eat all my meals and even snacks in between. I try to tell myself one thing I love about myself each day, even if some days it's really hard. I don't give up. I won't give up. When I start to see myself going down that rabbit whole again I try to remind myself that I'm of worth and that it's going to be okay and that I'm okay. I'm beautiful as I am and I don't need to alter myself to make myself more attractive and neither do you!
If you ever feel like this about yourself PLEASE reach out to someone you love. You deserve to love yourself. YOU. ARE. WORTH. IT. 💕
:::Body Image & Yoga Talk at Athleta Westport::: This Wednesday at 7:15pm-8:15pm I will be leading a discussion on body image, eating disorder awareness, and the power of practices like yoga, meditation, and mindfulness are essential in recovery from these issues.
This event is for teenagers, moms, dads, and anyone interested in starting the conversation on how prevalent body image issues actually are in our culture. We only start to heal when we get honest and remove the shame around eating disorders and body image.
Please comment below or send me a message if you'd like to attend.
Here's my challenge of the week: only say positive things about my body that have absolutely nothing to do with appearance! Say what?!?! 😳🤔 Example: its really rad my tummy stores food (aka energy) so I can go on amazing adventures! 🙌🏽 Who is with me? 🙋🏽What're you feeling about yourself today?!
Went on a lovely and easy 5 mile hike with Mama today.
👉🏾And then reality of life post hip replacement surgery problems set in.
My hip flexor tighten up so bad I had to stop multiple times and literally drop to the ground into pidgeon pose to keep it from spazzing.
This seldom happens, and normally it isn't until about 8+ miles, when I'm on a long hike, that I can feel it.....
But that is reality and life.
Sometimes our bodies feel good and work for us, other days they take convincing 🤷🏽♀️
When I got home I immediately jumped on my mat and did a million hamstring stretches, quad stretches and hip and heart openers to relieve some of the tightness.
Listen to your bodies lovelies and treat them kindly- they are the only ones we have.
I love these two 😍. They came out tonight to visit while I was working my side hustle and it just reinforces my motivation. They are my why. They are the reason I work so hard 💪🏻. Drop me a comment with your why 👇🏻
Tonight on the call for the @hungryforhappiness certification one of the things we talked about was attachments. The question was, what are you attaching to that's creating suffering for you? This is an interesting question and at first I had trouble with it. I didn't think I was attaching to anything because I don't want to suffer.
Something I use to be attached to was being shy, because it gave me a sense of protection from rejection. If I don't put myself out there, I won't risk being rejected. Another thing I used to be attached to is people pleasing, because it was easier to keep the peace than to set boundaries and again risk being disliked or rejected.
What are you attaching to that is causing suffering? I'm continuing to look at this question and get clear on the things I'm attached to. Another thing I learned is often we might think logically we are not attached to this thing, but on an emotional level we still are. This is why connecting to our body is so important and helpful when doing this work.
I've really started to believe in the idea of celebrating ones body. Of showing it gratitude for keeping us breathing, moving, and grooving. And appreciating it for each moment it allows us to take part in and for keeping our souls safe inside. We often forget to thank it until things go wrong. Until we can no longer jump as high or skip as fast. We don't show it the amount of love it deserves until it's too late.
Today on the blog I talk about celebrating your body. I ask you to marvel, remark, and honor your body like never before. Take deeper breaths. Hug others harder. Do the twist a little deeper. And remember that there is no certainty in how long it will continue to be this well oiled machine.
LINK IN BIO (oh how good it still feels to say that)!!!
Find joy in the journey is my mantra this week. It seems to be working.
Best running day in a long time. Not only did I have a good run this morning on my 9 miler but I was lucky enough to score another awesome run on my 3 miler this evening even after killing back/chest/triceps 😱
Let me tell you a story (favourite thing to do ever 😂). Photo taken Sunday afternoon, feeling body confident AF for like the past however many years (Sunnies from @vizionarysunglasses). THEN yesterday afternoon, I get the message, "Hey, do you still do fitness modelling and are you free for a shoot in 3hours time?" ✖My brain: F*CKKKKK WHY AM I SUCH A FAT SH*T?✖ Then I took a breath and went, "Wow d*ckhead, that was a really mean thing to say to yourself". I'd taken time off training up until a couple months ago. Admittedly I don't have as much muscle as I used to, but I'm not unfit, I'm actually not fat AT ALL, I am healthy and I look after my body and it shows. I was honest and said, "I don't look the same as the last time we had a shoot 3 years ago, and I've only just started back into being able to train again but I still look fit though" and I went and did the damn thing anyway, with only 3 hours notice, and the thing was that it was so NOT a big deal to go spend a couple hours being a fill in fitness model. No one could really give less sh*ts about what I do or don't look like. ✖ My point is that, we get so caught up in the whole "I'm not good enough and what will people think of me". So often this stops us from doing what we want or having what we really want when most of the time, no one is even paying you any attention and really couldn't care less what you look like, or what you do ✖
Need a kids camp for August?! Come join us for PLY Tween Yoga Camp full of relaxation, mindfulness, exercise and fun! Our Monday July 31st through August 3rd camp will include creative crafts, mediation, yoga poses and games to inspire kids to find peace in their busy lives. They will learn original ways to carry calmness throughout the summer and into the school year. Come join us @thebodyimageboutique in Saddle River ♥️ #kidsyoga#yogamom#kidscamp#summerfun2017
Today is #InternationalSelfCareDay 💛
Self-care means many different things to different people. It can be something like taking a bubble bath and giving yourself a manicure, or taking a shower and brushing your teeth, or taking a nap, or meditating, or honestly pretty much anything.
Today, grilling was my self-care. An unexpected situation came up this afternoon that threw me for a loop and definitely triggered my anxiety. However, instead of giving in to what I was feeling, I chose to focus on using DBT skills and I grilled a delicious turkey tenderloin as part of my dinner.
Sometimes my self-care is making art and meditating, and sometimes my self care is making sure I eat all of my meals. Both are equally valid and important, they just come into play at different times.
Practice self-care in whatever way suits your life best, and don't let anyone tell you it's wrong. 💙
Added Tuesday night classes, 6-7PM in Somerville because right after work is a perfect time to CHILL OUT and exhale from the day. So I'll try it out and see if people like this time. Tell your friends too Lovelies - these classes tend to explore more challenging poses (still MTL approved!) but it's fun to play with folks this way in yoga 💜👍🏼🌟
Body image post comin at ya: so I just ran 2 miles and made it back to my apartment for a stretch on my steps and I thought oh this might be a nice angle (nice change up from my selfies + who doesn't like a nice angle on their stomach?) anyways as I was fidgeting with the camera + self timer I noticed I still had to flex my abs for me to look like I'm in better shape and the camera caught my face fighting all the thoughts of "ok I need to flex my quad, tuck my stomach in, have a slight bend in my biceps and smile to look happy about it in the next 10 seconds" I tried a couple times and I ended up getting fed up with trying to look all put together + fit because even if I did nail the pose it would be a lie to myself and to the community on my feed that I am in better shape than I am and there's little room for improvement when I fact I have so much room to grow not only in my fitness but in my body image. The second pic on this post is a product of what happens when you relax a little: smiling + happy + mostly healthy/fit me rather than the first where I am critical + tired and trying to make myself feel better and impress people who follow me. For those who read my ah ha moment the whole way through I hope y'all can learn a little and be inspired to be amazingly you #loveyourself#bodyimage#trihereicome#chaargpostgrad
A shot of my weekly organic vegetable delivery😍 If you are around Melbourne checkout @greenline_organic 👌 I am not one who loves grocery shopping and this makes it so much easier, saves time and delivered right to my door and it's all organic🤗...can't get much better than that✌️
🤓If you find it hard to buy organic foods try to stick to 'the dirty dozen and the clean 15 list' if purchasing from a supermarket to reduce intake of pesticides, toxins and other processed foods that has a massive impact on your health. #organicfoods#eatclean#dirtydozen#clean15
Today's been a rather difficult day and I'm very tired. I've been burning more calories than normal the past few days, but I've not really been eating more, and I just want to sleep. I'm also having kind of a tough time not buying into the thoughts of "oh, I'm burning more calories so I'll just avoid eating more and amp up my caloric expenditure to lose weight faster." It's ironic to me - in a negative way - that these thoughts are coming less than 24 hours after feeling proud of what my body can accomplish. I hate eating disorders. I hate how sneakily the thoughts creep in. And after over half my life dealing with self hatred/body hatred type thoughts, I'm... tired of them. So so tired. I need to stop buying into them, because no matter how shitty I feel, they're never going to be correct and will never make me feel any better. #eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#anorexia#bodyimage#selfhatred#selfacceptance
What do you see when you look in the mirror?❣️
Self-love is talked a lot about today in the fitness industry yet so many people don't love themselves and put a huge front on. You're not fooling anyone other than yourself.
Just like any other skill, loving what you see in the mirror takes PRACTICE. Execution. Action. The next time you look at yourself, take note of the first thing you think of. Was it positive or negative? Did you tear yourself down or lift yourself up? Don't let yourself off easy when you are hateful towards what you see. Turn the negativity off and say something sweet & comforting. Examples: "I'm enough!", "I look great/fly today!", "I love my smile!", etc.
Just like mastering a sport or an instrument, positive self talk is a skill. It won't just happen, you must repeat it regularly.